Tuesday 20 December 2011

Update About My Pregnant Sister

Hi guys, I know that I haven't been around for a while but I received notification that on Saturday night that my sister has had her son.  Even though I have been bracing myself for this news, it hit me so hard.  I tried to mentally prepare myself.  I found that a really good tip is to buy a new baby gift online, because to be honest, I think I would have found going instore too hard.  On Sunday, I ordered a new born baby basket with a card, and it is due to be delivered today.  It did take every ounce of strength to do that and it only took a couple of minutes.  I also texted her to let her know and to say congratulations.  I am glad it happened before Xmas, I feel a bit more upbeat about it now.  I have to say that 2011 has been really tough on me as three of our siblings have had babies on both sides of the family.  I feel a lot brighter about 2012. 
Sadly, I'm still not really talking to my folks, especially my mum, even though she finally wrote an e-mail with some kind of apology, it wasn't  for hurting me, moreover a sentiment of her wanting to get the family together and failing.  I don't want to sound arrogant, and obviously this is one sided but I feel that by sending the gift and text, I really feel like the better person here.  That was more than my folks ever said to me.  My mother also said that my sister really wanted to get close to me during this experience, and you know, maybe I would have wanted to as well, and as an older sister, possibly give her advice, but due to my situation, what advice could I probably give.  This is yet another experience that my infertility has robbed me.