The Scan

Well guys, I had my scan.  It went ok.  The radiographer was lovely.  The probe wasn't too bad at all.  The left side was very quick, but the right side took a lot longer.  She kept asking me to push on my side.  She didn't say much as I guess she wasn't qualified to give me a medical opinion.  I find out on January 4th.  However, if there is something wrong, then I'm sure the ACU will call me.  It was fascinating to see my womb on the screen.  It looked quite small with a white outline.  There was blue fuzziness above it.  I just wander what ovarian tissue is present and if it is healthy.

Egg Donor Payment In The UK Article

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/health-15356148

Hi ladies,
Feeling a lot better today, thank you for all your kind words of support.  I have attached the link to an interesting BBC article debating a raise in rates for egg donors.  Yes please!  The process is so invasive that these brave volunteers who submit themselves to it in order to help a childless couple surely should be rewarded for their contribution.  Given the fact that some couples wait years for a donor because the list is so high is mad.  This is going to be the most frustrating bit for me as I am mixed race, we need to think how to tell our future child about my roots. This would mean that I could be looking at a very specific donor, which will be like looking for a needle in a haystack.  xx

Feeling a little sad today

Well, I plucked up the courage to look at Facebook today.  It appears as if DH second brother became a dad last night, on my pregnant sister's birthday.  My DH is now officially the only male member of the family not to be a dad.  I feel so humiliated, his dad and brothers now share something so special that he does not.  xx

Carl Wood IVF Pioneer

http://www.guardian.co.uk/science/2011/oct/16/carl-wood-obituary

Carl Wood, the Australian IVF pioneer behind the use of frozen embryos has died.  Thank you Carl for all the happiness that you have brought to so many families. xx

Insulting E-mail From My Mother

Hi guys,

I am so angry right now that it took me several hours to find the coherant words to post today.  Last night my mum sent me an e-mail which I will paraphrase.  My pregnant sister and I have never really be close but yesterday she went for a 4D scan that confirmed she is having a boy.  Apparently, she wanted to share all the pictures with me but feels that she has been abandoned by me.  We have never been close and why would that start now??? I have just left her to enjoy her pregnancy in peace, seriously, what remote support could I give her????  Likewise, she knows I have TS and can't have kids but how on earth could she support me?  This is probably why she has never mentioned it.  My mum then continued with the line that she has worked with several people who couldn't have children and they were devestated at first but then 'moved on with their lives'.  This translates to me like 'getting over it'.  Actually, I lead a very happy life and I even asked for my sister's new address two days ago so I could sent her birthday things.  Does this sound like the actions of a bitter and twisted infertile woman?????  She even went as far as to say that I needed to 'speak to someone'.  How dare she write such nasty things like that!  When I do need support I have all the great websites that I read.  I know when I need to talk to someone.  I also know that I don't need my mother to write such cruel and heartless things.