Well, it was actually my dad who called me last night. He briefly asked how I am and said that all the family are well. Within a minute (seriously) he asked if I was talking to my sister and how she needed my support and how much she has matured to the extent that she was being very mindful about me.
Firstly, I absolutely agree with the sentiment that she has matured. She hasn't plastered Facebook pictures and announcements etc, and this is something I am completely grateful for. I guess it is just unrealistic for me to sweep it under the carpet. I guess I am just devestated that I don't get to make either of my or DH parents granparents first, and I am so hurt by that fact. My mum then spoke to me and after a quick chat about the animals and work etc she said that she had received pictures of my sister with her new bump. I just said 'oh, that's nice.' Mum quickly changed the subject, knowing that she couldn't hide how excited she is to be a granny-to-be. I guess in my situation, I am stuck between a rock and a hard place, if my folks are too near then they are 'in my face' but if I am too far away then 'I am rejected'. I guess it is going to be a long journey in dealing with family pregnancies, and it isn't just my journey but my family's journey too. Wow, it has struck me how my tone has changed, maybe I am progressing!!
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